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Feelings
Monday, 8 February 2010
Do you have those days where you have no one in mind and you wish you have someone in mind? Well I just got it. Now the person I am thinking about is the person I use to have a crush with. All the things that happen before is now coming back to me. Its that little things that he did that made me liked him so much. Now he kinda came back to me and I can’t stop thinking about him ever since. I have been very negative about liking anyone for quite a while now, its like liking someone is very taboo for me but now I have that same feeling and I’m having this love-hate relationship with this feeling. I love the feeling of liking someone but I also hate the feeling cause you have all your hopes up and fear of it being crushed again. Damn why is this so complicated!!! Love, Fil :) 11:27 PM If your dreams were true...
Sunday, 7 February 2010
If your dreams were true... you will be successful you will get the guy you like you will have everything you want you are happy. Then again its only in the dream... Love, Fil :) 2:22 PM Relationship.
Thursday, 4 February 2010
I have to admit I've never been in a relationship nor do I have dates with guys. But I've got to say if that day really comes I have no idea how I will react. I've seen people celebrating the months and years of relationship but I never felt that before. I always thought that its sweet. But I have never put myself in their shoes. How does it feel to know you have been together for so long? Now I'm terrified. Then there are friends who got engaged and some are married. All for the right reasons. I am happy for all of them. Then it struck me, will I have that? That question itself terrifies me. It just shows how not ready I am. How does it all go? Fil the relationship NOOB...hahaha....share your love story with me please. But one thing is for sure I am not looking for any this year. I don't even know what I want to do in life. Hah. Love, Fil :) 12:58 AM Frustration
Monday, 1 February 2010
I'm actually one confuse person in life. I keep thinking I should do what I am supposed to do. For example I took up the course in poly because I am suppose to secure myself a cert. to be able to survive in the future. SO i did complete it. Then it comes to interviewing for work. I believe for every interview I went to I was just spreading lies about the things I could do. Which I know I could do it if I put my effort in it. There comes in the part where I'm suppose to work because that's what everyone expect you to do. After you end school you are suppose to work. Then again I realize how little passion I put in all of this. Dragging myself across Singapore trying to find my purpose in life. People kept telling me that I should do what I am passionate about. After months and months of searching, I think I can only do two things that I am truly happy to do. That is to take photos and theatre. This are the two things that make me feel like I'm on top of the world when I do them. It made me smile from ear to ear. No matter how tired I am, I'm happy to do it. Everyone is made to do something great in life. I want to do mine. My parents never stop me from doing anything. They are very supporting of what I do and I am touched by their support. Now I am just praying that I get to be what I want to be. Another thing that frustrates me is actually mostly on what is happening around me. I feel that there is a whole new propaganda going on. I know it is around. Hitler's time maybe the thing in the past where we learn what not to do, but I seriously do think that what he did before may inspire people now. Huh...something to think about....ugh...so complicated. Ya Allah, Tenangkan lah dunia ini. Insya'allah... Love, Fil :) 10:49 PM Inspiration
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
I have to say I don't have much inspiration to write about anything. I think that it is also due to my lack of emotions. When I am so filled up with emotions I write. Now I don't feel anything. No strong feelings towards anything. Hmm...but I want to write. Subhanallah. Then again I finally got myself a job. Thanks to Syikin; Ain's Sister! Awesome! Love, Fil :) 10:21 PM |
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